John Thomas is TWO!!

My little man turned 2! I am loving watching him grow. It is so much fun watching his personality develop. He is talking more, saying two syllable words and put two words together. Since John Thomas has started talking he has called Kennedy, our dog, Dee now he is beginning to call her Kennedy. As cute as it is to her him say Kennedy it makes me a little sad he does not use just Dee anymore. I am so thankful he is a healthy, active and happy boy. Loves in his life right now are the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse (anything Mickey), Bubble Guppies (a cartoon), Toy Story (Buzz and Woody), playing trains, painting and in typical boy fashion he loves to be chased and being thrown on the bed. As soon as he is thrown on the bed he laughs sits up and says again. He loves to play and run. I am so thankful that God is allowing Tommy and I to raise John Thomas and enjoy his journey.

Watching Mickey, wearing Mickey pj's

John Thomas is 2!

1day new, 1 year old and 2 years old

Playing with one of my favorite toys from Aunt Mandy

Reading a Mickey book, in Mickey pj's :)

Christmas and New Year

Christmas and New Year were both difficult for me this year, that's why it has taken me so long to post anything. I loved being home with my family and visiting Tommy's family. Christmas day was one month since I delivered Francis. As much as I know I did not do a single thing wrong and this is God's plan I can not help to so much guilt for not being able to carry my baby full term. Christmas Day was tough and New Years Eve night was tough. But for the most part my days are good now.
Here are a few pictures from our Christmas (from my iphone, of course)

Our 3rd Santa Claus of the season

Christmas Card

Christmas Eve Mass

Christmas night

Love this sweet boy!!!!

Fireball Throwing in Alabama! Family Tradition

Cousins

Gavin and John Thomas

Granna, Seth and John Thomas

My sweet Kennedy, back in Ohio



My jewelry and Tommy's key chain arrived. LOVE IT!!

Some people dream of angels

I held one in my arms



John Thomas lately

* I wrote this before Christmas but forgot to publish it

Through everything that has been happening the past two weeks John Thomas has been great. He had his Granna here to play one week and PawPaw the next. All kind of new toys cover my living room, which makes me happy.

Finger Painting

At Woodland Lights

JT and Daddy

JT did not like Santa

He still likes hanging out in the entertainment center

A little fun with JT's window crayons

Go Flyers!

Watching Mickey Mouse in our Mickey Mouse pj's

John Thomas decided to strip down to dance with Mickey. Cute little hiney!!

Sweet sleeping baby



Ball Pit from Granna

Showing off his new Mickey pj's (he loves mickey!!) I asked him to show me his new pj's and he turns around in circles making himself dizzy. Then he says "whoa" and falls to the ground. so funny!



My Angel

We have had an outpouring of love from family and friends. I have been reminded of how many people love and support us. Our house has been flooded with food, flowers and gifts. I have received so many cards, phone calls and text that have been so meaningful to me.
One day I ate lunch standing up because I was tired of trying to find an open spot at the table or counter top from all of the flowers. Fresh flowers filled our rooms and kitchen. Our fridge and freezer are both full of food that people have brought over. This is really a treat for my husband because I'm not big on cooking :) I even started freezing cookies because we had more sweets than should be allowed in one house (and because one day I ate 7 cookies!) especially for someone who has baby weight to loose.

Flowers



We have also received so many thoughtful gifts with special meanings behind them.
 We got a glass angel Christmas ornament in honor of Francis.
 Every year when we decorate our tree we can celebrate our sweet baby.

(I decided not to put up a tree this year.

I began decorating our house the day before my miscarriage and decided I didn't want to continue)

A Heart

I love the saying on it!!

And my husband gave me a beautiful diamond cross necklace

My parents and sisters have also ordered Tommy and I jewelry in memory of Francis that I will share once it comes in.

Poems and music have also helped me during this time. I have been very angry, but I am healing and trying to focus on the good. My baby never had to suffer through this world. I also feel honored that God choose me to give my grandparents a great grand baby, in heaven. I know my baby is so loved in heaven. I look forward to the day my family can be whole again.

I love these poems and quotes.
They help put into words my emotions of the past three weeks.